It's Coming....

Here we are... January is almost done and February is on it's way. This is when the time is going to start going by fast. I start to cry just writing this because it's such a reality check..... It's coming, the Deployment. There is no hiding from it, no running, no pretending that it's not going to come. IT IS. I try to stay positive. I know that it is just a small stepping stone in our life. But it is hard. I am not going to pretend that it's not hard to think about. Why was I given this challenge? I have had a very hard time in my life when it comes to religion. I have a very logical way of thinking, and when it comes to religion, logical is not the best way to think. Faith is a key stone to religion. I am interested to see why God has given me the challenge of having 2 children in Germany while my husband is deployed to a war zone. What am I going to learn and how am I going to grow through this? I know that a lot is going to happen and that I am going to have to embrace my Heavenly Father's love and lean on him and my faith. I know that Josh will be looked after. I know that I need to rely on my role as a mother during that time and just enjoy spending time with my 2 beautiful boys. I have been so blessed throughout my life. And I am overwhelmed at the moment thinking about all that I have been given. I am excited to visit Utah next fall through the winter. But as for now we have a pretty busy schedule. February we have Bentley's first birthday, valentines day, my 23rd birthday. March is Josh's 25th birthday. Also March will be a little practice deployment. Not far only about 20 minutes away, but Josh might as well be in a differen't country. He will be gone for 21 days. I'm sure glad I just got my German license. Then we have April and May... Josh will be in the field and training a lot during this time. We have block leave in May the 15th through the 31st. And then they deploy around June 17th. We are still deciding whether we are going to come home during block leave. It's around $2,500 for all of us to fly back so we will have to see.... That's all for now. We love and miss you all.